Showing posts with label Reflections. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Reflections. Show all posts

Friday, 21 May 2010

Personality Test : The Verdict

3 Yawns
The first word I'm going to say here is SIGH. Sorry, it's 'The" afterall. Sorry again if you didn't get the joke. It was never meant to be funny before I'm typing this in a very depressing mode. Depressing!!

If I'm not a goody two shoes, then I would have used a lot of swear words. Then all of you will eventually quit reading my blog wondering what happened to this girl. 

I think I'm facing quarter-life crisis. Being stuck with things and choices which will eventually determine me on where I am for the rest of my life. No, it's not wedding bells. It's career.

How many of you think that you've made the worst decision in your life by doing the job you're doing and studying the course you are studying?? I've asked around before and the most common answer I got was "You must pray about it". That's not a very helpful response -_-///

Today, I re-took a career test and discovered the following to be my ideal profession:-  (I'm an INFJ)

career counselor
- Yes, if I'm one, I will advise everyone to choose the career which they're passionate about. Not what their parents tell them to do!!! Not another doctor, engineer, accountant and lawyer only profession. Geez.

psychologist
- I don't mind doing this but I may ask/advise outside scope out of curiousity..hehehe like certain juicy details.

educational consultant
- I don't know what they do. But assume to be same as career counselor.

special education teacher
- Ok, I'm still fine with this for as long as I don't have to change diapers. But I don't think I'm patient enough to even teach normal kids.

librarian
- Is it about read read and read? Or sourcing and arranging for books? Ok only if it's a large library. Small time don't want.

artist
- I'm a born artist inside out. Regrettably didn't have the physical appearance for it.
 
playwright
- Hey not bad.....what play you want? Cheesy dialogues?

novelist/poet
- I honestly have always wanted to write a novel but until now can't find a suitable theme. Shall I compile a FICTIONAL  office bitching stories??? Ok, whatever my idea is it's supposed to be confidential. Shhhh....

editor/art director
- Count me in. 

information-graphics...designer
- If only I've taken formal course for this. 

HRM manager
- I love the feeling of having everyone under my mercy for firing and hiring. 

merchandise planner
- Ok no problem. When do you want to launch your products?

environmental lawyer
- Finally a hint of 'lawyer'. Well.........although I'm passionate about keeping the environment clean and unpolluted, I know nuts about fighting for that right except through protests and petitions.

marketer
job analyst
mental health counselor
dietitian/nutritionist
research
educational consultant
architects
interpreter/translator
- vaguely boring jobs. Sorry.



What would you actually do if you're not enjoying what you're currently doing?





Tuesday, 13 April 2010

Sequel : Is it time to give up on Malaysia?

6 Yawns
Mae on his campaign : Cina balik China, India balik India. 



How can such people like Mae oh Mae exist in the 21st century and in Malaysia!!??? I just do not understand. Although Ihsan have cured part of my stab wounds (Thanks Ihsan!), but it got reopened again. I'm not sure if oxygen mask/tank would be able to help me breath. Help! 

Here, his profile link.

Updated:-



Monday, 12 April 2010

Is it time to give up on Malaysia?

4 Yawns
Recently there are many stupid PERKOSA news. Such as Here and here.

Today I saw some discussion in Facebook where some fellas suddenly turn hostile and dug up history and debate as to who is 'pendatang' and who is not. So I thought I want to give my ultimatum and this is what I posted:-

" 
Dearsssss....let's us not fight over this...why not we kumpul duit migrate je lah...ALL OF US non-malay. Sounds good? Let them fight to death their Ketuanan what not...I'm getting sick and tired of all these.


It feels like shit being labelled as Pendatang over and over again even though it is not my choice or intention to be born here. When I'm studying and working my ass off for this country, all i get is to be reminded that I'm a pendatang. WTH

Thank you Malaysia, I'm very grateful. And to Ibrahim Ali and Mae oh Mae for reminding me."



And do you know what kind of response I've got? This:-



Mae Oh Mae

Karen, there is no sizeable Melayu community in China or any part of the world. Why, because we are lazy. Being lazy, we are peaceful people, we dont go to other people's place and kacau them. Unlike your stock, who came here, buat bising-bising, want to make this Tanah Melayu as yours. I sometime wonder why the current generation of Malaysian ... See MoreChinese is not as movable as their grandfathers who came from China. Nowadays, transports are easily available, but because they became lazy as well, they dont want to move out, especially after they found out that the native (Malays) can be easily conned.
11 minutes ago · Report

I feel like I just got stabbed in the lungs. Should I or should I not have suggested to move out from Malaysia?

Sunday, 11 April 2010

錢可以從樹生長嗎?

3 Yawns
這是我第一次用中文 blogging . 其實我不知道如何用中文閱讀 ^_^. 
一個遺憾是,在我的生活我不能閱讀中文,
但今天我能!

最近我的 工作很忙 ,但在同一時間很無聊.
Haih.如果只有錢可以從天上掉下來, 或長在樹上
真是好!!

你說呢? 

Sunday, 24 January 2010

The Intriguing People

2 Yawns










My 2 weeks encounter with different types of people. Real and this is what I think of them




The Heartbroken


They're sad, they're heartbroken. But God knows why. The whole world turned against him and there's no more light at the end of the tunnel (very morbid, huh). All of sudden, he has turn philosophical pouring all the wise sayings. Deep inside, he's very, very hurt. Unless you have an anti-dote to his misery, it's best not to say anything to aggravate his hurt. Shhhhh...


The Religious Leader


He's the leader, the shepherd of his flock. He brings people closer to the Divine One. He teaches the Words of the Almighty One. But if he teaches falsely, then I don't know what will happen. 


The Activist


He holds rights highly. If your rights are trampled on, he will come to your rescue fighting it to the very core. Every human has a right to breathe, food, shelter, air, marriage, religion, speech etc etc. Ah...speaking about freedom of speech, please don't hold him back even though he starts cursing and hurling all sorts of abuses. Because that's his right after all. A right to curse.


The Fence Sitter


He is neither supporting or against anyone. Atas pagar, we call him. He likes to look at both sides of the coin, both sides of the argument, both sides of the extreme. A neutral guy, I would say. In real life, we will only sit on the fence if we are clueless on what's going on. But towards the end of the day we would still need to make a stand. It's total bullshit he says that he's neither this side nor that side - unless the matter does not concern him at all.


The Aggravator


This guy likes to create trouble. He love seeing people fight among each other, and he is in glee when someone quarrels. He will put more charcoal (or whatever fire starter) to a burning fire. The brighter, bigger the better. Afterall, life needs more excitement. :-D


The Counsellor


He is someone you look to when something is not right. He may not be a magician, but his words are like magic. He will use words alone to conquer all. Words and words alone. (*suddenly white dove flying in)


The Over Intelligent


He is smart. But he is over smart. He says thing which slaps your face without realizing that he's actually slapping himself. The more smart thing he says, the more ugliness you see in him. To categorize him otherwise would not do him justice, afterall he's smart to say smart things. But just maybe at the wrong time. Sigh! What a wasted talent.


The Mastermind


You'll never find out who he is. He operates silently. He has loads of willing assistants. He is smart. Of all, his mind is the most intriguing. Even if you can get hold of his brain and dissect it (literally), you'll never find the answer. For you will only find gooey brain cells and blood vein.  If only you can ask him; why?


The Joker


Well, if you have ample free time then he'll be good to hang around with. He can talk A-Z and perform funny stunts - stop short of being an entertainer. Some can take him seriously, some can't. 


The Debater


Like The Counsellor, he's gifted with words. If he speaks, his voice will be the loudest. If he writes, he will write with a sword (too dramatic!). You will never ever, never ever win the war of words against him unless you are a debater yourself. If you happened to accidentally trip on his 'tail', NAH! he will give you 10 salient reasons on why you are wrong and another 5 ways on how you should apologize. Enough said, he said.


The Peacemaker


He loves peace. He will hate The Aggravator unless he's real bored. He will dislike The Over Intelligent for stirring up the unnecessary. For decades (or centuries) he will not be tired calling for peace. "CAN'T YOU ALL STOP FIGHTING FOR A SECOND??!!".  So, can you all stop bickering there? The Peacemaker needs a rest. 


The Observer


I will call them the hunter as well. Like cats preying, he will observe quietly underneath (the blanket). He will not let the sound of his breathe give him away (wonder if he will suffocate and die). His eyes will look for any suspicious creatures lurking around. He will smell if danger is coming ahead. His ears will listen to all movement changes. He will wait patiently. Hmhm...


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He sensed some movement! Immediately he text everyone in his mobile, tweet and updated his Facebook status of the impending danger. 






"RUN!! The cockroach just flew out from my toilet!"








Friday, 1 January 2010

Should I have New Year Resolutions?

4 Yawns
I only remember my New Year Resolution for as long as the first 2 weeks of January.

After that, it'll be like, "Huh?"

But because New Year is so festive and I'll have a day off, I think a New Year Resolution will add some cheer before the workload comes in like huge tsunami. ARGH!

What I may want to achieve in 2010 is.......

1. Going holiday and take terrific pictures with my loyal Canon Ixus 650
2. Find what I'm going to do in life (I'm still very lost!)
3. Get DSLR (seriously)
4. Read more novels, watch more movies/dramas
5. Expand friends
6. Decorate my house
7. Enter and complete Project 365
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8. Look prettier 


HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

Tuesday, 29 December 2009

My world in 2009

4 Yawns
2009, aside from my holidays, was a great challenge to me. So I thought life after the horrible CLP will be blissfull. Whoa! Life as a chambering student is worse - like taking 10 subjects for CLP. All I remember about 2009 is that I was constantly tired. I see tired, eat tired, sleep tired. The only word  I could only mutter is t-i-r-e-d. That explains the massive drop in blog posts for this year.

Now that I'm back at Kota Kinabalu, I have more personal time for myself. I can finally breathe peacefully [unless I'm required to rush last minute work beyond midnight!].

Let me recall what I've achieved in the year 2009:-

1. Called to the Bar
2. Chambering for the 2nd time
3. Travelled to Cambodia and totally loved it!
4. Found a good hairstylist
5. Helped a foreigner to be released from jail
6.  Learn sign language
7. Watched movie with Deaf friends
8. Pack and move house/room 3 times - ENOUGH OF MOVING ALREADY!
9. Took an exam and failed terribly...hahahahah!
10. Growing more and more grey hair. OMG! Too shy to let my hairstylist see.
11. Fell really sick on my birthday, for 2 weeks. Somemore during H1N1 season.
12. Watched the greatest sunset from airplane before touching down at KKIA. God's best gift for me this year.



Serenity at Siem Reap, Cambodia

 
Yummy strawberry yoghurt at Cameron Highlands




The sun and the fisherman at a hazy sunrise- Kuantan




Reaching up to the high sky - Pangkor
 





And I still haven't own a DSLR.


For last year's compilation - [see here].

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

I need excitement !

0 Yawns
Everyday is a new day, fresh beginning. 

When I stepped into the LRT in the morning, it's always new and fresh smelly armpits and toxic-like breaths. New faces of kiasu-ness pushing here and there in the LRT. And all the kiasi getting out of LRT. The scenario is different everyday. But same concept. People rushing for work oblivion to the inexistent clear blue sky. Such dullness.

I have no time for everything, yet have time to dream. 

I dream of beautiful sunrise and cotton white clouds. Not sunrise concealed by buildings.

I dream of sunset by the horizon, reflected by sparkling seawater. Not sunset hidden by dust and smoke.

I dream of sleeping and never have to wake up at 6.30am! 

Thursday, 1 January 2009

Resolutions

0 Yawns
Ok, maybe I should have a mini resolution afterall. Or I should rename it as "Hope-To-Achieve List".

Simple one.

For year 2009 I just want to complete my pupillage, buy myself a SLR and have a wonderful travelling time.

I'm sure this is achievable. ;-)

Wednesday, 31 December 2008

The year that was...2008

2 Yawns
Forget about new year Resolutions. They never work and is not practical. Not Practical!

Rather than drawing up some unfulfillable resolutions, I'd rather think about what I've done and achieved in the yesteryear of 2008.

  1. Completed my CLP in 1 sitting
  2. Attended ATC's Grand Convocation the 2nd time
  3. Started my pupillage
  4. Attended my 1st company dinner
  5. Went to Shanghai when the autumn season just started
  6. Get tanned during my breath-taking summer holidays
  7. Visited the disabled children's home in Taman Megah
  8. Learnt how to do hair updos
  9. Wore my 1st proper cheongsam
  10. Had a mini reunion with the Bestarians 2002
  11. Watched a European film
  12. Going to Seremban for a dinner (for Christmas and Dongzhi festival)
And I've also compiled a pictures of my 'award winning' photos


Breathtaking aren't they?

And a peek into my whole year's compilation...


At least these memories are truly mine. Thank you 2008.

Hi 2009.. can you give me a SLR..please?

Saturday, 20 September 2008

Get a life

0 Yawns
Q: How's life?

A: Not cool...I wish I could've said, "I went to there there there and there....I did this this this and this, I met who who and who..". I wish I have tons of people to meet, places to go and activities to do. Even coming online losses it's zeal. 

I think playing The Sims 2 until having a stiff neck is 100 times better than coming online. Seriously!

Tuesday, 8 July 2008

What I want to do

1 Yawns
The first thing I'm going to do after exam.....is to grow my hair...yes! It'll be a year long project. Somehow i miss my long wavy locks. And I'm not going to do rebonding to make it 'nice'.


I look so yesterday

Quare: Guess when this picture is taken?

And comparing this picture with my current haggard look...I'm so glad i've taken some pics which i look at least youthful and happy. At least to remind myself that being stuck with CLP is not the end of the world.

Monday, 3 September 2007

Sister Cora's last lesson...

0 Yawns
I love reading articles and devotionals from "The Word Among Us". Was introduced to me by Bernice some time ago. In Malaysia's catholic churches, they sell the common 3 devotional books, just like "Our Daily Bread". We have "Shalom" which is published by Prayer Ministry Office in PJ, "One Bread One Body" from Presentation Ministries (http://www.presentationministries.com/obob/obobArchive.asp) and "The Word Among Us".

I would say "Shalom" is very reflective kind of devotional. Towards the end of the day when I read it, I felt very compassionate about life. Everyday when we strive to achieve our dreams, works and responsibilities, is there a meaning when we can't / bother to look around to see who is in need. Or whether we have been concerned to nourish our soul.

Next, I think "One Bread One Body" complements "Shalom". When certain bible passages are not easily understandable, the earlier explains the latter. And further, it tell the connections between bible verses. So, if you're a bible adventurer, "OBOB" if for you.

Next, "TWAU" is slightly more expensive, but it has articles to read. It has lighter reflections and make you see the positive side of negativity. Here, I found one recent article to share and which is worth reminding all of us again:



Sister Cora's Last Lesson

A powerful teaching from an unlikely source

by Barbara Kramer



"Here is something you might want to do", said my husband, as we left church one Sunday. He pointed to an item in the parish bulletin: Has your life ever been touched by the Sisters of St. Joseph? "Would you like to return the kindness?" It went on to ask for volunteers to help out at the local nursing home for the retired nuns from the order.


The Sisters had staffed the Catholic schools in our area for many years and taught all three of our children. They had also shown me great kindness when I was growing up. My mother died when I was eleven, and for the next two years, the Sisters had taken me into their boarding school and under their wing, giving me the support, kindness, and direction that I needed.

That bulletin came at the perfect time. Our last child had just gone off to college, and our family nest was feeling very empty. Volunteering at the nursing home seemed like just the thing to do.


Yes, But . . .? I had one stipulation, though, and I told God about it as I drove to the home for my first interview: Lord, I will gladly read to these Sisters, listen to them, do little things for them. But there is no way that I can help anyone with Alzheimer's disease.?

I had too many memories of my grandmother, whose final years were marked by severe dementia. She had always seemed so angry, and I was terribly afraid of her. On a deeper level, though, diseases like Alzheimer's were too disturbing to me. Why did God allow these things to happen especially to people who had served him faithfully? How could anyone who had lost their sense of identity possibly serve his purposes?


None of this came up in my interview with Sr. Sheila, the volunteer coordinator. We had a pleasant conversation, followed by a tour of the home. It was shining clean, and the residents were obviously well cared for. I was impressed and said so. "Good," said Sr. Sheila. "Can you help in the Alzheimer wing on Saturday afternoons?" My heart sank. My mind said, "No! No, I can't!" And yet, to my great amazement, I heard myself saying, "Yes, I can try."

Teacher and Student. The next week, I was shaking in my boots as I reported for duty at the Alzheimer wing. Sr. Sheila introduced me to the twenty or so nuns there. They were in various stages of physical and mental deterioration. Much to my surprise, however, they were not angry. They were welcoming, peaceful, and kind. With unquestioning acceptance, they took my hand as we walked into the activity room.


My role was simply to be with several of the Sisters to sit and talk, give them what they needed, and make sure they didn't leave the building. The work was challenging, yet satisfying. But as the weeks went by, caring for one Sister in particular became my biggest challenge.

Sr. Cora (not her real name) was a feisty, vigorous, and rather gruff woman who seemed to delight in finding ways to elude my watchful eye. At the same time, she always seemed glad to see me. I, for my part, became very fond of her.


The early stages of her disease, Sr. Cora still acted in character. A former teacher at an all-boys school, she would inform me in forceful tones, about "going to the principal's office now. You stay at your seat. I'll be right back".And she would march grandly off, scolding me like a naughty student when I tried to stop her. But as her disease progressed, even the teacher in Sr. Cora faded and then disappeared completely.

The Picture on the Wall. Sr. Cora usually repeated the same things over and over. But one day, as the two of us sat visiting in her room, she began speaking with unusual clarity. "No one ever liked me, you know," she said in a confiding tone. "My family was probably glad to get rid of me when I joined the convent."


Stunned, I tried to protest, "Sr. Cora, that can't be. You must have had a cousin or an aunt or friends who liked you."

"Nope, no one," she answered. Then she hesitated. "Well, okay, there was one person who liked me but I don't remember his name."


"Was he a relative? A friend??". "I told you I don't know!" she replied in a loud, impatient voice. "But if you're so darn curious, just turn around. His picture is on the wall behind you."

I turned, expecting to see a photo of a favorite uncle or grandfather. There instead was a familiar picture of a man with a kind and loving look. Tears were running down my face as I exclaimed, Sr. Cora, that't Jesus!


"I told you I can't remember his name,"she said. "But I'm telling you, he was always around when no one else was. And he always took good care of me." I was speechless. Sr. Cora's deteriorating mind had not lost her sense of Jesus being with her. Suddenly, I could see that he was still with her, even as her faculties and sense of self kept slipping away.

Whatever happened, Sr. Cora would never lose her identity as a beloved child of God. And neither would she lose her ability to serve God's purposes. Without even knowing it, by bearing witness to Jesus's presence in suffering, she was still doing God's work. Sr. Cora was still teaching. And I felt honored to be her student.



Barbara Kramer lives in Portage, Michigan.

*Not intending to infringe any copyrights

Friday, 24 August 2007

Prayerful Hands

0 Yawns
The Lord's Prayer


Our Father in Heaven, [我們的天父]
hallowed be your name, [願祢的名受顯揚]
your kingdom come, [願祢的國降臨]
your will be done, [願祢的旨意奉行在人間]
on earth as in Heaven. [如同在天上]
Give us today our daily bread. [求祢今天賞給我們日用的食糧]
Forgive us our sins [求祢寬恕我們的罪惡]
as we forgive those who sin against us. [如同我們寬恕別人一樣]
Save us from the time of trial [不要讓我們陷於誘惑]
and deliver us from evil. [但救我們免於兇惡]
[For the kingdom, the power, and the glory are yours
now and for ever.] Amen. [因為國度、權柄、榮耀,全是祢的,
直到永遠。阿們!]



(Note also: http://www.interviewwithgod.com/playprayer.htm - really beautiful! I was mesmerized.)

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